Dare I say it? Â I think this “Just blog,heifer!” movement that I started to motivate myself is working! Â This is my 4th blog in as many days and I am astounded! Why you ask? Because all I want right now is my bed (and possibly a glass of wine)!
This is a hodgepodge of thoughts. Â Thinking I wanted to vlog tonight but, not having concrete thoughts in my head. Thinking about how awesome my frog princess is! Thinking about the fact that I had a good day at work today. Â About the powerful prayer call this morning that moved me to tears and the gratefulness in my heart that I am connected to so many women of God that can hold me up when I am down. Â Thinking about the fact that the dog needs to be walked (ugh!).
I did an impulsive thing today. Â Without even balancing my budget, I registered for Bloggy Boot Camp! I can’t believe I did that. Usually, I don’t make rash decisions but I figured this would be equal to me buying a purse on sight. Except that I hope to get a lot more out of this conference than anyone would out of a purse. Â Add to that the fact that a) my cousin who I have become VERY close to in the last few months and whom I’ve never met lives there AND b) one of my BFF’s owes me a trip and she is from Atlanta and thus has already marked her calendar for this date and you can see why I’m all crazy with excitement.
I am keeping my fingers crossed that I am able to take that Friday off from work. Â Not sure what the plans are but, seriously, I’m tired of planning. Â I plan for a living. Â I make sure things are on schedule for the better part of my life. Â I am quickly learning that I need to simply trust that things will work out and GO WITH IT! I told my cousin this week that for the rest of the year, I want to have a type B personality (don’t ask me what that is but, I figured it wouldn’t be type A).
I want to go with the flow. Â Chill out. Â Go on vacation (I haven’t been on one since March of ’08!). Take care of myself! Not worry. Â Hit the beach (often!). Â Hug more. Â Judge less. Love more. Remember less. Â I want to enjoy my life. Help others. Â Lend a hand whenever I can. Â Pray for those that need it. Â Forgive the ones that may have hurt me. Â Endure the things that cannot be helped. Â Demand to be respected. Â Speak to those that are willing to listen and listen to those that speak. Â I want to laugh. Â To be joyful. Â To prepare for what is in store for me. Â To be humbled by my blessings. Â To be open to criticism. Â To be happy. Â To be content.
All of these thing I want. Â I realized after some powerful prayers today that, it is okay for me to dream again. Â It is okay for me to want and demand and expect. Â I just need to be sure I’m looking in the right direction. Â And only then will all things be bright and beautiful…