I’ve been running around all day in an emotional rollercoaster. Â For a lot of different reasons. Â Most, you know. Others, I keep tied to the strings of my heart. Â Tonight, as I looked through papers that needed to be purged, old notebooks and cards, I found something. Â Now, I am pretty sure I wrote this. Part of me wonders if I really did write this. Â But, I was known to write stuff like this and then put it up in poster format so as to pontificate and make it look pretty. Â I have no recollection of what I was going through when I did.
But, I’m glad I found it. Â From the notebook it was in, this must have been written circa 2005. Â I guess 30 year old me figured I would need to hear this today, eh? Â This is what it says:
I take risks everyday. Â I take them because I refuse to live in a bubble of fear. Â Not that I’m not scared to death. Â I just push myself (or drag myself, depending on the situation) straight into my fear. Â Why? Because as frightened as I am, I still haven’t lost my faith. Â And that’s what keeps me going. Â Faith keeps my dreams alive. Â It allows me to trust someone wholeheartedly. Â To give all I can in everything I do. Â It allows me to believe in the impossible, the magical. Â In dreams, imaginary friends and fairy tales. Â There’s no better way to find peace in your heart than faith. Â No better comfort in knowing that some things were just meant to be whether or not you’re scared. Â Nothing better than faith to cure you of your fears.
I’m so glad my faith continues to grow day by day. I don’t much love the growing pains but, I know it’s not in vain. I do believe in dreams coming true and fairy tales. Â Always the fairy tale. Â Because we always forget all the hell that the princesses went through in the story and all we remember is the happily ever after. Â And not just from a boy/girl perspective. But in everything in life I believe in the fairy tale. Â Your dream job, your dream house, your dream car, your dream iPad. You name it. Â I’ll be posting this somewhere in my line of sight so that I can read it and internalize it even more so. Â Because I need this more than anyone right now.
What are your thoughts on faith?